I think he fucks with you on purpose.
I'm just a Angel and stuff but it's just a hunch.


Jesus?

Yeah

That's what I've been trying to tell people since I was like, 9.

When i was nine i was pretty sure he was outside my bedroom window holding a lantern so i wouldn't be scared.
Just so i had a nightlight

Yeah, well, while he was there I was getting raped by my father. So.
Now I know where he was.

And this is when i wish i could hug you.
Really tight
Till your eyeballs popped out.
That pretty much smacked me in the face.

Sorry...

I never got hit as a kid but i had to watch my stepdad beat my siblings and watch them suffer.
I'd just cry under my blankets.

Mhm...

That's the only time i will go under blankets...if i am crying
Other than that i feel like i can't breathe
I have problems.

I think if God exists, it's not for everyone.
He only decides to help certain people.

And that's why you mock him?

I don't mock him.

you tell me prayer doesn't work either.
Or when i've heard you say, Fuck you God!
I guess it is out of anger.
And hurt.

Prayer doesn't work.
Thats not mocking.
That's just fact.
And when I say Fuck you god, it's literally taunting whatever being is in power - or if nothing is in power, then just back luck and fate.
Neil Garces
2:47pm
Neil Garces

Angelique Bracone
2:49pm
Angelique Bracone
Fuckin' Neil
Neil Garces
2:50pm
Neil Garces
I just made that.
Makes it easier to see what I'm seeing.
Angelique Bracone
2:54pm
Angelique Bracone
Verbatim to thought.
Angelique Bracone
2:54pm
Angelique Bracone

Neil Garces
2:54pm
Neil Garces
Well it makes sense, right?
(and you're unfairly beautiful)
Angelique Bracone
2:55pm
Angelique Bracone
You're crazy
There's prettier girls out there.
Neil Garces
2:57pm
Neil Garces
Naturally beautiful? Not many.
On a night out, maybe 40% of women can be considered "attractive". And by that I mean simply not-unattractive.
Take that 40% and remove their make up.
You're instantly down to maybe 10%.
Now take that 10% and put them in a normal setting like a bedroom or just walking outside, and in normal clothes.
Down to maybe 3%.
You're in that 3%.
And that's not including personality and character.
You take that 3% of girls that can be beautiful without make up and in regular clothes... and add in the probability that that're nice, generous and unselfish souls?
You're in the 0.5%
Angelique Bracone
3:06pm
Angelique Bracone
Thanks for the breakdown. Lol
Neil Garces
3:09pm
Neil Garces
Sorry. Just how I think of things.
Angelique Bracone
3:10pm
Angelique Bracone
No need to say sorry silly
Neil Garces
3:15pm
Neil Garces
but does that prayer chart make sense?
Angelique Bracone
3:54pm
Angelique Bracone
What if you're just praying' and nothing bad happened. Your just talking to God. Like hey, what's up?
I guess it kinda does but idk....i pray not only when bad things happen but when good things happen as well.
But i understand what you're saying too.
i guess that's why we each have our own free will to believe what we think.
And should God exist only he can judge us on how lived our lives.
There is no right or wrong answer.
and i am sure when and if there is a heaven and we get there he'll have minute after minutes of questions from every single person.
Simple just a..why?
Angelique Bracone
4:08pm
Angelique Bracone
I'm sure you have a list of questions, just like i do.
Neil Garces
4:09pm
Neil Garces
99% of all prayers are things like, "Dear God, keep ______ safe, please help ________, and cure _________ of cancer, and protect ___________."
Those are all things that are asking God to change his plan.
Most prayers aren't, "Hey God. What's up? Man today sucked. Anyway. Thanks for listening."
Even when you watch sports, every athlete and fan is praying to God for a certain outcome.
It's all pointless.
Now, that isn't to say that there isn't a God. There could be. But by the very definition of who he is, when we pray and ask him of something, it make no sense.
It's not an opinion.
It's a fact.
Praying for change or help does not work.
Let's say you pray for something to happen. And someone else prays for the opposite. Only ONE of those can come true.
So what does that mean for the other person? They didn't pray hard enough? They weren't Christian enough? God doesn't care as much about that person?
No. What's ALWAYS said is that God works in mysterious ways we can't understand and has a greater plan.
Okay then.
So why pray!??!
You just admitted that he's going to do what he's going to do regardless.
He has his own plan.
So whether or not you believe in God - it doesn't matter. Prayer doesn't work.
If someone shoots a gun at me and I pray I don't get hit, it doesn't matter. I'm going to get hit. You know how many people have died praying they wouldn't?
How many people on the Titanic were praying to God as they drown in the sea?
Probably all of them.
They died anyway.
Why? Either A.) there is no God, or B.) God decided they should die.
Either way, prayer didn't do a damn thing.
It's very basic first grade logic.
Now, if you just want to pray - as you said - to vent. Or share how your feeling... kind of like a mental diary... that make sense.
But then, you're not praying so much as mentally working out your life as anyone else would. The only difference is that other people work it out themselves, and you believe you're talking to a spirit.
They're both the same behavior with the same intention.
Writing a blog, writing a song, thinking about it before you go to bed, venting to God... it's all the same thing.
So.
Yeah. It's not mocking God. It's showcasing logic.
Neil Garces
4:26pm
Neil Garces
get it?
Angelique Bracone
4:29pm
Angelique Bracone
Mhm...now tell me the difference between girls & women.
Neil Garces
4:30pm
Neil Garces
Boob size.
Angelique Bracone
4:30pm
Angelique Bracone
Lol
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