Elocin.

i will always be sad that i wasn't important enough to you for an apology. 

that who i am, my heart and will and soul and everything i did for you wasn't worth a simple explanation or call. 

i didn't pick you up from a closet floor because you meant nothing to me. I didn't skip work and buy you lunch when you said you hadn't eaten because i didn't care. i didn't write a song about you because i thought you were nothing. i didn't help you move even though my back was on fire the entire time because you weren't worth it. i did it all and more because we had something rare.

we didn't have to be forever. no one expected that. not even knotts berry farm and roller coaster fridays expected that. it all had an expiration date.

but I miss it all. 

the least you could have done was acknowledge my existence at the end. 

i could have loved you for that.

sexoF

Of course she's fine.

Of course I'm not.

Of course she wore her office costume.

Of course her friends adore her.

Of course I'm a redacted memory.

Of course I'm sitting in dust again.

Of course I never mattered to her.

Of course.

Of course.